Optimism....

Let's start from two days ago. I teach a class 2-3 nights a week from 8-10pm. As some of you many know, I am not a night owl. I am whole heartedly a morning person. Some of the best coffee is made in the morning!! Well, I usually wear my glasses for my evening class, because my eyes get tired and they help me focus. I didn't wear them on Monday and one of my students said:

"You look different. Oh, you're not wearing your glasses. Actually your eyes are red. You look like you have had some alcohol."

Wow - a shot to the ego. The second week of the month is always the most difficult for me. When I say always, I mean as far as the last 4 months have gone.

Last night: I wore my glasses. A different student says:

"Are you cold? You look like you have a cold."

Bam - 2nd shot to the ego. I am pretty tired especially since I have worked 10 -12 hours straight for the past three days and little sleep. Sometimes coffee can't fix that, only keep your eyes open.

As I was heading home I was beyond tired that I couldn't sleep. I was laying awake at 11pm and Patrick asked me if I had anything on my mind. Well, since my mind was racing to stay awake and focused in class I said:

"Well, where do I begin? I read some news so that I could have extra topics to discuss. I'm thinking about Obama. Obama. Gun control. Gun sales have risen. Risen. I'm thinking about crime. Crime. I'm thinking about Mexico. Mexico. I miss Mexican food. Food. I really scarfed my burrito for dinner tonight. Scarf. I think I might need a scarf for next week. Cold. I don't like winter. Winter. I really want to be in Mexico. Mexico. I just read an article about an obese Mexican that was cremated. Death. Suicide. Korea has one of the highest rates of suicide. 25 per 100,000. Why so high? America is 10 per100,000. Why so low? Crime. We are too worried about staying alive we don't have a desire to end our death. Death. Where is God in all of this?

How can a person sleep with all this crap circulating in the brain????

Needless to say I couldn't get up this morning and hit my snooze button and dragged my bum out of bed at 5:38am to still be at work at 6:20am with coffee in hand. I tend to run to work so that I can warm myself up while trimming a few minutes off the walk.

I was dragging after my 2nd class and decided that this week it's ok to get coffee at Starbucks because it's the hardest one of the month. I was walking down the stairs as my legs gave out and I was able to catch myself with the banister, but unfortunately banging my shin against the rail. Ouch!!

Could this week drag any longer......

As I entered Starbucks to order a small coffee (tall), I was given a tall (grande), and only charged for a small. I looked at the barista puzzled, not sure what English words she might know. She gave me a "why are you staring at me?" look. And all I could do was say THANK YOU.

Sometimes we have to be grateful for the little things in life. My eyes are still burning, but I have a warm belly. :)